ahhhhhh, another day....

today is father's day, so HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!! *eh hem* anyways.... wats new with me? ehhh... nm, me and "the gang" went to q-zar last nite, it was full of drama....between... well just about everyone. i wandered and hung with amanda the whole night. it felt good becuz i finally got my peace and quiet i always wanted.... i felt really depressed and left out all night, i just about did nuthing but smoked and walked around.... then these guys from my school came to my surprise. and insulted me calling me a faggot and vietnamese piece of shit... o well... i have learned that you just have to shrug everything off. but besides that. i had a shit load of stress on my shoulders... when will the pain and hurt stop. i would like questions answered about my life......................................................

another exciting day...

o yes! another exciting day is right, all i have to say is that today is the greatest day of my life.... i asked tara to be my g.f... she said YES!! yay!!! omg, i am so happy! i <3 her alot... may god look upon us with grace and mercy

hi there...

well today is saturday, another used up day. i have to go to two graduation parties. ugh! i hate parties, i dont wanna go, especially sine my parental units bound me down to ony wearing wat they WANT me to wear...i hate everything. that's wat's wrong wit this world;too much structure and ad everyone HAS to get the priorities straight these days... i say NO to that crap,get yur priorities crooked. no one should ever have the right to tell you wat to do. WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO NATURAL RIGHTS?! i guess our elders and leaders forgot aout that one.... o well... i just had to vent, i am so frustrated and angry with parents, government, my supposed friends. i can get along with no one, amanda is always like "you dontcare enough"... no shyt sherlock, we're not going out, i only care on a friendshp level. jay is offendedby his fat ass nose apparently, and everyone else is un-fukking- happy. the only ones that actually listen up and care are lauren, tara, jessie,and erin at this point. they are prolly the coolest people ever. thanks for that. las nite wasprobably the worst night. not to mention the most boring, iam sick of doing te same old shit evey friday. wat ma this day even worse was the chris' stupid family fukkig mde fun of how i dress and wat i do... FUKK YOU BALALAOS FAMILY... WATEVER, i care not abou tose people there, amanda is a victim of being used by chris as a fukk toy. chris is a womanizer that deserves to rot in hell. jen is okay with me iguess, nothing wrong with her at least. jay, you try too hard to care, don care, you and me are friends, but we're not friends that talk about problems because everytime i talk about a serious issue, you decide to laug like a old piece of shit, dont quit you dunkin donut job. i really wanted to spend the nite hanging with lauren cuz i think i have feelings fr her, but at this point in my life, i am not sure anymore.... all i know is tat i feel cold and blind. also empty because i have really, no one to be by my side, or to lay on the flor with, or even just talk and lagh with... yes i do laugh with people, but those are laughs of despair. i have learned to bottle fear, sadness, and torture that drives me to the point of insanity. i just grin and bear my cross which are my burdens....... god if my sheperd i shall not want.... and of course, i want nuthing from life, apparently the lord WANTS me to just carry my burdens and my hardships on my shoulders.  

                                this planet is hell which no man nor woman can survive...

hi, long time, no write...

well not alot to say.... my life is taking it's ups and downs. i am sick with a cold. it all be gone in time, anyways, i have been pretty good friendship wise, there is nothing that will go wrong. except today in art class... my teacher threw my picture i was doing of wolfwood out, she said she didn't like it, all i wanted to say was fukk u, it's my life and you cant interfere in it. but, being such a polite guy and all, i bit my tongue and said nothing... i also dub erin and tara ad myself as the three amigos!!! lol. i have been also making friends with amanda friend,lauren, she's a kool gal, she's known to me as my one and only sunshine lol. m dad wen away for a lil' to go golfing !whoopedy doo! i wish i could get a vacation lke him, well it i coming, 7 das of scholeft theni haveto take those dreadfulregents ad expecting to go to summer school... ugh! well that's about all that's new with me.... i think.... i would lie to thank: tara,erin, jenn s.,dan,ed, and lauren for being there.... never change!!!